the only CONSTANT is CHANGE

i cant believe how this quote greatly affect the way i think

maybe the fact that i am at this age, i cannot stop thinking of the changes that are happening around me..

maybe its because.. I JUST THINK TOO MUCH.. or issit bcos.. i am SOOO not susceptible to changes or because everyone is really changing including me.

everything used to be so good back then, why change?

i used to talk about everything to you, share my secrets, my ups, my downs, my views, my thoughts... i thought that i have a place where i can pour my heart to. then u needed to go somewhere far.. then i became lonely.. all alone at home, not many friends to talk to bcos mum just wouldnt let me out.. then i got so used to it, keeping everything to myself and my diary.. talking to only myself day and night..

then one of u came back... attitudes clashed, arguments ensued, u were so used to controlling ppl there, i was so used to being alone and live freely here.. then i started ignoring u till this day bcos u are UTTERLY irritating..

then another one of you came back... i was more than glad.. but things still weren't they way it used to be.. the way u listened changed, u just werent that attentive anymore, u have to work, u have to go pak toh, you have to help out... i seriously don blame u.. but then i started to think.. is it really back to me alone again?..

so i have friends... even friends leave this place one by one.. so what if they will come back.. bcos they will never be the same...

so... what i can do is.. count on only one person --> myself!

this is my own life, i am going to live it my way, things will always change, but i am always going to be ME...,

but seriously.. how childish it is to think that things will always be the same...

when we were kids, we only think about toys, cartoons and who we wanna friend

when we were teenagers, we only think about boys, a little bit of shopping, and which friend we wanna ditch.

now that we are adolescents, we start to think about life, boyfriends, sex, makeups, more shopping, travel, assignments, college, weight, girlfriends and the friends we lost along the way..

when we reach adulthood, we start to think about marriage, kids, longterm/serious boyfriends, husbands, more on life, money, work, more expensive shopping, food, wedding, more about sex and traveling to further places..

when we reach mid-life, we think about our teenagers, job, straying husbands, our wrinkles, our body, nothing bout sex anymore, money-borrowing friends, shopping.... for groceries, and maybe nothing else.. cause we'd be too busy.

when we reach the old age... hehe.. not sure bout this.. but i am very sure it will all start with .. OUR HEALTH, if our children can feed themselves, grandchildren, retirement, MORE bout life, our spouses who are still here.. or not.., and we would also think and cannot stop talking bout how this world have changed SO much..

and when i reach the old age.. i wanna remember this post i wrote.. to see if it proves true. and maybe i would travel on air when i reach 60..!

feel free to add or disagree with anything..