ramblings

sorry for my long absence.. and so sorry pooikwani.. i didnt see the message on the chatbox until just now.

have been very busy these few days.. with the assignments and all. though its hectic, but its ok.. i am sure all the pressure and stress will end b4 i know it...

i miss my all my friends who are studying away in Australia!... i miss all of u so much! wanna see u all right now...! =p..

its hard to comprehend my feelings right now. i am having mixed feeling bout everything. its really true.. as we get older we really have more problems... thus the gray strands.

i keep saying that i am busy busy busy... with assignments.. but truth be told.. i don't do my assignments most of the time. i am so lazy until the extend that i kinda hate myself. for being everything tht i am right now.. ppl may say that i am always optimistic. which sounds good no matter how u say the word 'optimistic'. i keep telling myself "everything is gonna be ok.. i will surely do it later.. lets read some blogs first; its,. ok.. i am quite full right now.. if i do my assignments now.. i will get fat.. so let's watch some tv shows.. standing.. to let the food go down in digestion" and.. hell lots more of excuses.. typing these out.. i really am optimistic.. i actually trust myself and that i will listen to myself asking myself to start on my assignments!.. wtf!..

actually to say that i myself is busy... and that i have no time to go out with the boys to catch up bla bla bla... is really a pile of bullshit i just realised it myself. its just this excuse to keep telling myself that i am at home.. and i can start on my assignments anytime.. if i ever go out.. i risk wasting time.. but its actually all the same.. out the house and in.. i do waste a lot of time!.. i always sense this pang of guilt each time i read on quotes about.. ppl who waste time.. life is short... what matters most is the amount of work that u do in that little short space of time and not the amount of time to do ur work and such la.... ok.. this suddenly hit my conscience.. what the hell am i doing here typing away..

i may as well get started..

but i am laaaaaaaazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.....

wth..

bye peeps..