have been doing nothing yesterday and today.. but this weekend is special for me in a way.. i will never forget it..
have u ever had a crush on someone so strong that you want to be with them so much but both of u do not know a lot bout each other?
and once u get to know that person better.. talk to them more.. you suddenly realise.. 'do i really like this person?'... that actually happened to me yesterday... i finally got the chance to go out with this guy... this guy that i have had a crush on for a yr... i've gotta admit.. it was really his looks taht got me. so i went out with him for dinner.. we talked a lot.. wait.. correction.. he talked a lot!.. haha... serious man.. u say mei wen chatterbox.. if this person wants to become 2nd.. i don dare to be 1st.. but its a good thing though.. i guess he was really letting me to know him better.. cause this is a person who knows his own flaws.. but makes no effort to change them... the way he describes his temper got me thinking... is he a hainanese or what?!... heheh.. even i cannot stand against him.. but maybe i am a girl thats why lo...
haih.. reality is so harsh.. the feeling is like.. u have seen the cutest guy ever.. and u work so hard to get him notice u.... but in the end.. it just doesnt meant to be.. and u have to let go this person and go searching for mr right again.. i m not really taht desperate for mr right.. but.. sometimes.. it is fun to have someone to flirt with.. someone to have feelings towards... and i love the feeling of wooing and being wooed.. but to say the truth.. i am not ready to have another boyfriend.. well.. yet..
at this age... it is very uncommon just to have a simple relationship.. where both of u go to watch movie.. hold hands.. kiss... have dinner.. and the furthest intimacy both can go is the french kiss level. everyone agree with me?.. maybe my mind is not mature enuff.. but i am seriously not ready to give myself emotionally and physically to a guy who i am not sure if he will be my future husband. yea... old fashioned .. i know.. thats mayb bcos.. i am raised under a strict family.. who's not terrified of my mum huh?.. hahaa.. sometimes i am so lucky that i am still a virgin!.. u know why??.. there was once i went to a gynaechology (watever the spelling is..) clinic for a check up. my mum was in the room with me.. aiya.. the whole time... she kept on answering all the questions the doctor asked me.. including this... the doctor asked..."are u sexually active?" my mum .. without thinking said.. "no la ... she is not".. hahahahhaa i was so happy!.. my mum actually TRUST me!.. and if i had sex b4.. i tell u.. i dunno how to tell the doctor.. "err.. sorry... i am... " my mum would be so struck!.. hahahahahaha...
ms. sue leen (my college lecturer) once.. told us... a girl who have had pre-marital sex.. is just like an opened package.. do u like an opened package?.. would u like to give someone u love so much an opened package?.. which literally is.. U..? i think what she said is really meaningful.. this thought has been with me for 2 yrs.. and she memang pun my favorite lecturer.. so of course.. i auto will hear what she says wan lo.. she actually made us sign an agreement.. the agreement mentioned about.. "we have to be a virgin until we get married.. bla bla bla".. cool eh?.. yea.. so i signed it.. and i let joey bcome my witness. and i become joey's witness.. but she doesnt need wan la.. she is like a nun!.. when a guy starts to get close to her. .she'd pull out!.. funny man this girl..
but anyway.. my point is.. is having sex part of being with someone at this age?.. dont u think we are too early to give away something so precious..? i gave my first kiss to someone wrong.. and when i hear the phrase first kiss.. i just.. feel sorry and bad for myself.. just how the hell did i take control of my life.. .. that is only a kiss.. but what if i gave my virginity to a jerk?.. i'd just hate myself.. :)
ok la.. done.. bye bye la.. hope all of u would take my words in.. and refrain from having premarital sex... especially you...
11 comments:
mei wennnnnnnn.. woohooo... why are u emo-ed on love issues? Let it takes its course. always know what is meant to be will eventually be yours. if it not, no point forcing. Your first kiss... er.. try not to take it as ur first kiss. Did you heart beat when u kissed the first time. If no, it is not counted as your irst true kiss. no worries. let time be ur answers. STUDY.
love u..
muax
hahaha dunno..
just wanna talk bout it lo..
yea.. let love come naturally..
haha anyway.. thanks darling love u!
Heloo..thought of commenting here to let you know that I dropped by..but I guess that's not the only thing now...what nun? lolxx..juz tht I think the time is not right yet...
Yea rmbr what ms magdalene told us the other day? If it's yours, it'll be yours. Being aggresive will only lead to greater disappointment. So, no worries!
See you in col!
Joey
hey mei wen,
it is not wrong to think that remaining a virgin till after marriage is something not in 'fashion', in fact it's a downright opposite you should be extremely proud of yourself for standing your ground.
On the question of love, never rush it, when it's the perfect partner, you'll know it, darling! ;)
First kisses are never great for anyone, it's those first kisses that comes later on that are most important! Ask anyone and you'll probably find out that there are only a VERY small percentage that actually don't regret their first kiss. So don't worry/ think too much about it.
A good life philosophy thought to me by my dad is, "Don't regret anything you've done in your life. Then you'll have nothing to regret or feel sorry about!" :)
Lastly, NEVER let anyone influence you into doing something you're not ready for or don't want to do, EVER, you hear? ;)
From,
a very proud friend of yours who loves ya,
-Eve.
ps: I hope I didn't sound too mother-y hehe
no..eve.. no u definitely don sound like a mother.. hehe.. love ur comment.. and everything u said is correct... when the perfect one comes i will definitely know it... hehe. but i am really curious how does it feel to have to right guy... okok. not gonna say anymore.. b4 i sound like i am really desperate.
it didnt really occur to me that actually only a few liked their first kiss.. but i do find a logic reason in it.. some young teenagers actually gave their first kiss away to someone they thought was perfect then. then only after that.. only they realise that guy is a big jerk. not sure if ppl would agree with me on this..
and to JOey aka m_Schu22... hehe... yea.. wanted to add in what ms magdalene told us too.. but i do not know where to put it in.. see..? sisters means sisters.. u also got include that statement here.. love u joey and eve!.. muakss
wow, evonne's really talking some serious sense here. i like this phrase,
"Don't regret anything you've done in your life. Then you'll have nothing to regret or feel sorry about!"
about the guy, HAHAHA!! hainanese. u guys definitely will end up like ur mom and dad. u know what i mean?? hehe. and U ar, memang like to rush into love. slowly slowly.. man man.. u so pretty, it'll be just a blink before someother guys on their knees, looking for u!
muaks, cutie!
not everyone's "first love" is the Best or Greatest love, if you know what I mean. And like you said, TEENS. How many of us were mature enough to know what exactly was right or wrong.
Anyways, be glad that it was just a kiss and not your virginity haha :P (actually why am I laughing? it's not funny >_<;)
About the perfect partner thing, well I can't exactly put it in words to you but I can definitely tell you that one thing you'll experience is that you'd be able to feel how much that person loves you and how much you love them in return.
It's Beautiful, really :)
PS: it takes a long time to realise that you truly love someone. For the first year, it's most likely infatuation or lust or both, in my opinion, love developes in stages and only when you get to a certain point would you realise that you truly want to be with that person and vice versa. It's like, somehow or other you'll both know that you really love each other mutually Heh.
Yee Lyn do you mean to say that i am not usually a sensible person? >:P
Evonne :
haha, damn, i'm being "cha" for complimenting. fjhLSDHFuaw ... what u said did made sense for this topic, gaL! and u sound really wise in this relationship stuff ler. (knock forehead!)
ps, come to think bout it, i never really heard u talk like that. never had the chance. hope to in the future! ciao! (sorry meiwen, using ur blog as chatroom!)
hahaha no its ok... i really don mind.. its cool.. all of u are chatting here... i love having a lot of comments for my posts..
and eve!! i don really such words from u ... i think its partly bcos i don see u often.. and if i see u also.. i don really talk bout my lovelife.. do i?... but i always talk bout my love life wan woh.. hehehe anwyay.. i really appreciate ur comments.. make me so look forward to getting the right guy.. ok. I think i am getting more desperate.. but no la.. trying my best not to rush into anything..
and eelin.. u think i want to rush ah?!... but then.. i waited for one whole yr.. would u wait for a mechanic for one whole yr?.. hehe.. .. he isnt hainanese.. he is hakka.. but.. his temper may be worse than mine!..
not gonna talk bout it anymore.. i will tell u more when i see u la..
see ya darling!
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