one good thing i find about myself is that, i forget sad moments easily. Today i am sad... the next week.. i will ask myself.. what happened last week?..
which is why i kept on thinking that i have never been as sad as today. i am sure i had! but maybe its for different reasons thats why the feeling is different.
Again, i kept on thinking that i have never felt such way for a guy. Mayb i had, but i just forgot which one and who?.. Mayb its bcos they are not the same person. Like DUH!...
I cried a lot of times today. Issit bcos i am sensitive or i just fell badly for him?
I think its more to sensitive. i cry easily.. i am a sponge!.. i am not going to tell what happened today for i am too lazy to type it all out... all i know is... for today, love SUCKS for me!
For the whole evening, it was as though my mind held this marathon for thoughts. I kept on telling myself... after today, everything would be just fine. and sooner than i expect, he'd b long gone and would be thrown deep into my love bin. And also.. i'd have bad feelings for him the next time i see him and everything would be the total opposite of last time. True enough, i looked at his picture just now.. i really wanted to delete the picture. Seriously... what's his worth that i have to throw my face away to grab his attention. Well, i must say that i did get his attention...... but forawhile. and then he got distracted...
But the thing is.. why would i wanna continue pursue a person that i know will never b serious on me. He and i will never work out. I have never liked him!.... from the start i already knew that we will never be compatible no matter how much 'I' compromise!.. The only reason bhind me wanting him so much is bcos... i do not wanna fail... thats all!.. this is why they say i am those kind who love with my mind and not with my heart. And since i have worked so hard to know him better... i just didnt think it would be OK for me to give up on the first few signs of incompatibility.
Anyway…. No matter what happens in the future… I only hope everything will be ok for me…
haih......
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